You're Making Me Shine.

"Look at me mommy, I'm the brightest star of them all!" Yeah. I remember when I said that to my mother several years ago when I was just a little kid. Now look at me. I've grown up so fast. I rarely remember the ruins of my past. It's good in some ways, yet terrible in others. Yet, overall, some memories may be good, but they must be forgotten.

"You have a future ahead of you, kid!" Yeah. My Dad told me that all the time. Did I mention it's coming from a grown man who didn't graduate passed middle school? I mean, poor guy considering he's my Dad and all, and I've taken 90% of my genes from him. I wish my family was rejoined again. You know, before my Dad walked out on us when I was 5. I wish a lot of things would come back to normal again..

You know, ever since I met you about 9 months ago, you have really showed that wonderful thing inside of me to the whole world. You're making me shine, sweetie. I never though anyone could do it, but you have. I'm serious. My lack of self confidence has decreased; I actually appreciate myself now. Not just my looks, but just about everything. Honestly, without you in my life, I'd be the same old kid, as dull as it could get. As a matter of fact, I may have been an implosion of my own rotten, yet fully grown soul. Thank you, you beautiful Angel.

You know, I've been thinking a lot today, considering I stayed home from school. I think I found out who I really am.
Let's hear it:
-An outsider
-Different
-Sorta outgoing
-Not so intelligent, but knows how to think outside the box, which gives me my intelligence
-Kind
-Harmless, yet I can kill you with words, or a distinct smile
-I like to cry, you build strength
That's about it.

Basically, I've found myself. After 15 fucking years, I finally found myself. I want you all to know though, no matter where I find myself, or what happens to myself, she's always going to be there for me. She'll be right by my side. My intentions are gold.