Oasis.

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day?
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

This is such an amazing song. Most people think it's a love song, I don't think so. I think it's about yourself, or your self conscious. It is tell you the roads to take. It also tells you that if you mess up at some point in life, your mind will save you, or at least it might. I had more on my mind, but I guess I lost it, Ha oh well, but you get the point? Hopefully. Lol.

"I'll Comeback!"

So, "The Butterfly Effect," is by far my favorite movie of all time. It's so twisted in the most greatest way. I know this movie is from like '03 or some shit, but I still love it. Yeah, sorry about the random post. You guys probably don't even care, lol.

You're Making Me Shine.

"Look at me mommy, I'm the brightest star of them all!" Yeah. I remember when I said that to my mother several years ago when I was just a little kid. Now look at me. I've grown up so fast. I rarely remember the ruins of my past. It's good in some ways, yet terrible in others. Yet, overall, some memories may be good, but they must be forgotten.

"You have a future ahead of you, kid!" Yeah. My Dad told me that all the time. Did I mention it's coming from a grown man who didn't graduate passed middle school? I mean, poor guy considering he's my Dad and all, and I've taken 90% of my genes from him. I wish my family was rejoined again. You know, before my Dad walked out on us when I was 5. I wish a lot of things would come back to normal again..

You know, ever since I met you about 9 months ago, you have really showed that wonderful thing inside of me to the whole world. You're making me shine, sweetie. I never though anyone could do it, but you have. I'm serious. My lack of self confidence has decreased; I actually appreciate myself now. Not just my looks, but just about everything. Honestly, without you in my life, I'd be the same old kid, as dull as it could get. As a matter of fact, I may have been an implosion of my own rotten, yet fully grown soul. Thank you, you beautiful Angel.

You know, I've been thinking a lot today, considering I stayed home from school. I think I found out who I really am.
Let's hear it:
-An outsider
-Different
-Sorta outgoing
-Not so intelligent, but knows how to think outside the box, which gives me my intelligence
-Kind
-Harmless, yet I can kill you with words, or a distinct smile
-I like to cry, you build strength
That's about it.

Basically, I've found myself. After 15 fucking years, I finally found myself. I want you all to know though, no matter where I find myself, or what happens to myself, she's always going to be there for me. She'll be right by my side. My intentions are gold.

Thank You God!

Well, in case you haven't noticed, I got my computer back! I mean seriously, it took long enough ha.

So in case you're wondering what's going on, here's a little list:
-Got Computer back
-Brittany and I are doing great!
-Friends are coming a little closer again
-Mom's limiting my "freedom." Bitch.
-I love my phone ha
-Guitar is coming out a lot better
-Not doing as good in school
-Less bad dreams
And that's about it! :)